sorry guys i was not able to post yesterday for the following reasons...

1. i went home at 5:45pm...

2. i talked to siokoy and autoloadmax...

3. i was scolded...

4. the computer can not connect to the internet...

yesterday i was absent in the morning...then someone texted me...he said he saw my number in a P20 bill...i was so happy because i saw siokoy and autoloadmax...it was a surprise because it was my first time to see hime without any gel...and siokoy did not have any spiky hair...i gave them our "pasalubong"...then we talked...and siokoy was staring at me!!!damn i love his eyes!totally!!!*blush*...i asked about the guy who texted me and i knew he was guilty of writing my number in the bill...siokoy was stupid...anyway...nothing happened today...we only sang and sang...so that's all...:D :wink:...

hi guys!am back from my retreat and i'm so happy!!!well in the first day, during the trip i got dizzy...:P...when i got there we went to the cathedral and took pictures...then we went Philippine Military Academy...i got dizzy again...then autoloadmax and siokoy texted me and hea...then i told siokoy to say sorry to hea already...so he did...then siokoy texted me...saying....best "pasalubong"...don't forget....i want a shirt!if possible no dark colors...if possible white...but i chose blue...then autoloadmax ewanted silver...when we were looking it was funny because bubbles is a head turner once more...she was wearing a blue khaki striped skirt a whit fit shirt and she just let her hair loose at her back...she really looked liked a foreigner...she has white complexion, long and brown wavy hair, hazel brownish green eyes, and a slim body...she has a german, spanish, chinese and filipino blood...no wonder...she was walking in the sidewalk of the academy while she was touching the flowers...and all the cadets were looking at her...we even heard someone say..."hey girl...do you know how to speak tagalog?"...hea, silver and i just laughed...fortunately bubbles didn't hear it...:P...then we took pictures there...bought t-shirts for siokoy and mc...then i bought a native bracelet for myself...hea also bought a shirt while silver bought a gorgeous native bag...the weather was cool...then we went to SM Baguio...we had our lunch there..then bubbles looked for blue long socks, blue shades and a blue necktie...while i bought witch, and a ragnarok shirt...by that time i don't have money anymore...i even lost a P100...poor me...then we looked for a silver boyish necklace for autoloadmax...but it was expensive so hea and i shared money for it...then silver didn't bought anything...then we headed to the Holy Spirit Convent...there silence can make you deaf...as in totally...we left our bags in the corridor...then we entered the session hall…our adviser told us that we are 50 students all in all…then she said dorm A and dorm C will have 24 students each in it…that means two more people has no room…then she said that there will be two people who will have to sleep alone in a room…so our adviser asked… “who will be brave enough to sleep alone in a room in dorm B?”…and since I want to sleep alone i raised my hand i raised my hand immediately…hea raised her hand too…I didn’t expect that my friend would want to…then my classmates asked… “are you not afraid?didn’t our batchmates tell you that there are ghosts in this convent?”…hea and i happily responded… “it’ll be much fun!”…everyone was surprised since hea and i are one of the most silent people in class… (unbelievable isn’t it?!)…then we went to our rooms then texted our family, siokoy and autoloadmax that we will be surrending our cellphones and as well as our cameras…then the first meal has started…4pm snacks…then session…then we met Fr. Efren de Guzman…our retreat master…he’s a good singer and he even taught us how to eat a flower…that flower was the gumamela…it tastes like vegetable…specifically like lettuce…then we had water therapy…then he thought us so many things…then we ate dinner at 7pm…then we went to confession…we slept at 12:30 early morning…seems like all of us have lots of mortal sins…:P…then woke up at 4:30am then slept again and stood up at 5:30am…took a bath then we went outside to have the morning praise…the rosary garden…why rosary?because the flowers and the stepping stones were shaped like a rosary from above…silver was looking great…she was so beautiful with her clothes…she was wearing a thrasher (not literally) style outfit…bubbles looked like a boy…:lol:…then we ate breakfast at 7am…then session again…10am snacks…then session…then lunch at 12nn…then Fr. De Guzman told me to tell our adviser that session will start at 3pm…so we all slept…then session…then 4pm snack again…the food’s great!...then our teacher gave us paper…and then we started to write our letters to our parents…I wrote in a bench near the tree house where the tree house was almost in a cliff… the place was so cold and full of solitude…it made me calm…then at 6:00pm we had our mass…then 7pm we ate dinner…then we went to the session hall and saw a pascal candle there…then our adviser started the session which made us all cry…then we read our parent’s letters…after I read mine I feel so guilty…so I cried a lot…then our class decided to read the letters aloud each…some were funny and some were touching…others even shared…we slept at 12:30am again…then while I was about to sleep…I heard our teacher said… “I feel I’m going to fart”…then she did…it was so stinky!!! :lol:…she even said “yes!”…:lol: :P…it was so fun…then while I was sleeping someone entered our dorm and started knocking on our adviser’s room shouting “ma’am…it’s princes!hurry!”…then i fell asleep again…when I woke up it was already 6am…6:30 we will have the mass…so hea and I took a bath as fast as we could…then I saw princes confess again…during breakfast I heard my classmate say that princes was possessed because her spirit was so down…she totally lost herself…but after confession she was better…then we had our breakfast…sang lots of songs…then we packed our things…placed them outside the session hall…took our very last and the best lunch in the convent…then we were allotted to have an hour to have picture taking in the convent…it was so nice…then siokoy texted…we were talking about how he missed me…wehehehehehe…then went to burnham park and bought things…bubbles looked so much like avril…that’s why she was a head-turner once again…then I bought food and went home…I forgot to tell you…I’m a professional photographer now because all my classmates asked me to take pictures of them…I even looked like a camera rack…because their cameras hanged in my arm…wehehehehehe… then on my trip home…my dad told me to tell my teacher to go down at the hospital…my mom was confined…she had a mild heart attack…how sad…she’s fine now…:D…well I think I posted too long so…that’s it…ja matta ne!!!:D :wink:…

meet up with my bestfriends, autoloadmax and siokoy, in mcdo1 at 3pm...chat with birdbrain at 9pm...sleep at i-dunnopm...---->all CANCELLED...i dunno why but now...i feel really bad...about this... my sched is a wreck now...AM I THE UNLUCKIEST PERSON TODAY?!!!why?!!!!!!!!:cry :...damn i don't feel good so forgive my fuckin' words your reading right now because i hate today and tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!GAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH HH!!!!!!!!!!!:evil:!!!

well...today is kinda sad...because my only "grandson" "miggy", hea's son, jumped out of his basket...joke...what i meant was...our class mayor accidentally hit the basket where "miggy" was staying...and the egg bounced...so it cracked...dunno why...but i think hea was even happy... but she is in war with "miggy's" pet minature stuffed dog named bullet...hea was talking to a doll...telling the doll that it was bullet's fault why "miggy" died...anyweiz...i'm in a terrible situation now because...i will make two speeches...an english speech and a filipino speech which will not exceed in 5 minutes...any topic will do...and all of us are worried to talk in front without saying...uh...uhmmm...unnecessary movements and without trembling voices...and that should be done until saturday...i am so dead... in our PE class...our teacher was not present...and then bubbles asked me, ana and ericka to teach her how to walk like a lady...it was fun because she really need a lot of practice...but she's a fast learner...it's funny because she even screamed like a girl...:lol:...i just talked to autoloadmax...he said he's going to treat us, me and hea...we tallked for 45 minutes...i really miss the guys...so much...specially siokoy...oh well have to make a speech...ja!!!:D :wink:...

~lalalalalalalalalalalala la~

well september 15, 2004 sure is a happy day for me...why?dunno...i just feel happy...maybe because nimfh won't be around for three days...weeeee!!!!!!:D...or maybe because i got so obssessed with my project which is my "son"...kevin jason _ _ _ _...weee!secret...:wink:...last night i put hair on him made out of dmc...then i gave him a haircut...it was so hard...now i know that hairstyling is hard...whew!took me an hour to cut artificial hair from an egg...i have a new nickname again...now he has two...one is JaKe from kevin jason...then KiJ from KJ_ his initials...i don't want it to be KJ because it might mean he's a kill-joy...then...i made a bandana and a bonnet...on the bandana i embroidered "JaKe"...which can be read as JoKe...that's how my classmates read it...then on the bonnet i embroidered "KiJ"...he looked so real except for the fact he has no body...he has his own crib...his crib is so expensive...it's small and it's just fit for him...then on the crib i placed his name in cursive...on the front side i wrote Jason and on the back side i wrote Kevin...then i even provided him a pet...in real life his pet is not allowed to be a pet...his pet is a Kuala Bear wearing a bonnet and his skiing things...he's naked...:P...it's named "kioji"...kioji takes care of my "son" in the nursery during class...a vacant cabinet was in our classroom...and it served as the nursery...all the eggs and their cribs fitted there...and everytime we go to our class, our mayor will announce, "classmates!bonding session of our babies...place them in the nursery right now!"...hehehehe....it' s just annoying bacause my classmates who has a girl for their child has a crib that is so pink...actually their daughters look pink...different color of hair popped out...my classmate,aiko, have twins for her project... then this afternoon two eggs broke...which brought my 2 classmates into mourning...then my economics teacher stated...everyday a child dies and everyday there is a mourning mother...which made us all laugh and made the mourning mothers cry more...:lol:...my egg even has a 2 family trees...well the original tree...i am the eldest...i have two daughters, silver and hea...hea has a son named "miggy"(egg)...then silver has three daughters, nimfh, mc and "keira"(egg)...nimfh has a daughter(egg), i don't know her name because she hasn't decided yet...mc has a son named "dunno"(egg) because he has no name yet...then the second family tree will be me as the eldest again..i have 2 children...ana as my first...then "jake"(egg) as my only "son"...then ana has her daughter named "kheeanne"(egg)...wee!!!!:D...my "son" have lots of friends...and everything is so fine..."jake" even have a godsister named "mia"(egg)..."mia" is bubbles' daughter...weeee!!!well...now i'm tired...gonna go now...i'm hungry again...~lalalalalala~...:D :wink:...

weee!!!!!

i'm just wondering...everytime there is something nice happening...someone...or...something has to ruin it...me and my sisters and my only brother was raised well by my parents since birth...although me and my youngest sister didn't experience anything hard in life...we were luckier than my elder siblings...my elder siblings experienced an easier life when we transferred here in Tarlac...when i was in my first year in high school...everything was just right...suddenly...when i was going to USA...my only "ate"(elder sister) had her summer classes in DLSU...i was so happy when i was abroad...that was my first time to chat also...meeting my long and trustful friends birdbrain, buddy, sandra, jacq, lesly and toni...until now they are my friends...it's almost three years now...also three years of being probihited and always repramanded by my parents not to do this and that...study this and that...last year my sister ran away from home...she stayed with her immature boyfriend...for 6 months i haven't seen and heard from her...in those months i started to not care about her...i told myself...it's her life not mine...better not interrup...until last april...she went home...i was not happy...because surely more talks...she stayed...everything was fine...but my sister always lose control of herself and suddenly cries and hurt herself...before she ran away she was already like that...i gave her the phone code for long distance...which i should not have...she consumed a lot of money for telephone, internet and cellphone...until my mom changed it and now no one knows what the code is except for my mom and dad...yesterday...her boyfriend went here to tarlac to see my sister...they were out the whole day...my friends even saw them in mcdo...when she got home...my mom was telling my sister that she should have let her boyfriend talk to our parents...which she didn't...when i woke up this morning...my mom was crying so loud...then my dad came in to our room, mine and my youngest sister...he asked us if we knew...from that question i already knew what was happening...my sister ran away...again...i felt so fucked up that i didn't even say goodbye to my parents before i went to school...when i got home...our helper at home told me that my parents went to manila to look for my sister...and i pray that my sister is not with them...i dunno why...my brother just called...i dunno why but everytime he tells me something for my good...it makes me cry...obviously i'm just wiping my tears now...well i guess i have to make my assignments now...ja!:D :wink:...

*sigh*

hi everyone...well as you can see i changed the title...everything is pointless...which is true...i find everything pointless...for me...the harder i try...the lower you become...it's like elysse will always be elysse...the disrespectful, defenseless, wrong and know nothing-anything-good little girl...so for me...when i think i did my best it's enough...do everything you may and can do...don't try something you can't do...*sigh*...i guess enough of these talk...i should get going now...my know-it-all mom is gonna scold me again...ja matta ne minna...:D :wink:...

*sigh*

hi guys...i woke up...my head aches...i cancelled my lesson...connected to the net...read his mail...replied...knew i was too late...then slept...then slept...then now...i'm so dissapointed and confused...that's all for now...ja...:D :wink:...

anou?

well...in the morning we had our holy mass...i was in the choir of course...the choir was a mess...so after the mass we were asked to stay behind the other students...so our president was very disappointed about our performance...the moderator of our club got angry and shouted...then we went to the Tarlac State University Gym to watch Tales of Mindanao...we arrived there at 9:30am and the show started at 11:30 which is supposed to be 10:30...i was happy because i saw my crush K9 because other schools were there...i didn't see my two bestfriends, siokoy and autoloadmax...but they were there...i saw some of my friends in other schools...we arrived back in school about 2:00pm...then i ate my lunch...looked for bubbles so i can get my badminton racket back...then went up to clean the classroom for the parents to come...my mom came at 3:00pm...and i went home at 4:15pm...i didn't want to go home yet because i know i will be scolded...when i got home...it happened...i was scolded...i was afraid of them...they have loud voices which really makes me nervous...i was so afraid and left them...my dad followed me and talked to me calmly as he can...i was already crying at that time...i told my dad that i was lucky i didn't fail...yah true i have low grades but without failing marks...it just hurts when they talk...its like the final grading already...they were telling me that i will not graduate high school...i tried to reason out that i will...they always think that i can't do things...they're expecting so much from me...like what the song says...~i did my best...but i guess my best wasn't good enough~...i'll show them...i can be better...that's all...i still have to email my bestfriend in US...ja matta ne!!!:D :wink:...

*sigh*

hello...well today...i wokeup at 4:30 in the morning just to give mc's and my other friends' letters...she went to my house and called me...which woke me up...then they left for their retreat...we didn't have a good class discussion today because there were no teachers around...in our computer class we did an activity...and our computer...had...a non-stop hanging...then we ate recess...then i got my exam results in math...i failed...it was a total of 125 points...then filipino...i forgot to bring my book...then lunch...we had laughs and practice...then seatworks...then the Christian Living period...no teacher again...my classmates were...playing the guitar...2 of them plus 3 watching...1 is missing...3 absentees...7 were making seatworks including me...1 is feeling bummed...2 are acting in front...3 are drawing in the board...4 are havinng their hair fixed...and the other 23 were applying make-up...and they dunno why...freaky...then bubbles came again...then we ate nestle tollhouse rich brownie...then she left then here i am...that's all...am tired...ja matta ne!!!:D :wink:...

uhhhh...

well today...when i got to school...everybody is busy making letters...including...me!it is because the retreat month of the fourth has already started...and all of them...requested for letters...dunno why...the happy 4-joy will have their retreat tomorrow...mc!!!!WAH!!!then the lovely,cream 4-love(sept.9)...then the greedy 4-hope(sept.16)...then the very kind, understanding, and polite 4-faith(sept.23)...it is wherein i am included... waiii!!!well...i made eight letters already...this morning...we had an open forum against our adviser...and we were just embarrassed...we didn't have teachers actually because they rushed for deliberation of our grades...then we had our practice in TMA...and my voice will not rest until next month...whew!bubbles and i made her email add her friendster account...and she is finally connected to the cyberspace...oh well...have to make more letters...ja matta ne!!!:D :wink:...

do you know that it's hard

to make lots of letters!!!

your finger will turn into

this!!!